It's been awhile.
The fact that I am blogging means that things are changing for me. In a good way I hope.
For 5 years now I have worked at a real live paying job while simultaneously working at a time eating, zombie creating, mom-reducing, money sucking small business. The business was so small that not enough people came. And now it is over.
I'd like to say I'm devastated. I'm not. I feel like that is wrong somehow? After investing blood, sweat and tears into this endeavor for 5 long years you would think I'd be sadder to see it go. I am sad to not be able to provide a much needed service in our area, and I'm sad that I won't be meeting more of the amazingly wonderful people that have come into my life through this business. But that's all. I am not sad that I'm no longer spending every Saturday in servitude, I am not sad that I'm killing my back and working until 9:00 at night, and I am definitely not sad that I am continuing to do these things while not earning a dime.
I did it for the love. For the love of beautiful dresses, and of happy brides, and of being told I was a blessing to these girls and their families. I wanted to help, I wanted to be an answer to somebody's prayers and I did my absolute best to achieve that. Now however, it's time for me to try to be a blessing in my families lives. It's been a long time since I have been able to do that, I'm not sure if I remember how.